Ooh Baby Baby It’s A Wild World..
Fragile. Strong. Beautiful. Exotic. Mysterious. Alluring. Broken. Sensual. Feisty. Honest. Dangerous. Elusive. Vulnerable.
Natsuki Kishi, ‘Natsuki Doll’ to her wide coterie of international fans on her Facebook page, is a sometimes erotic nude model, and she’s also a hard working single Japanese mom from Toyota City, with a cute and precocious 5 year old daughter.
She bangs It.
She opens up and lets you inside and exposes herself and takes your breath away.
Td: Natsuki. You were telling me you’ve worked at a ‘Health Club’ –[basically a legal brothel, there are thousands of these places all over Japan where men pay for sexual ‘service’ from women, basic entrance fee averages= 15 thousand yen –publisher.]
Nk: Yes. I only worked there one day. I tried, but I couldn’t do it right. A customer chose me from the pictures. We took separate showers, it was okay. Then I had to do the ‘job’, but my body couldn’t accept the situation, but of course, he thought he could do anything he wanted, but I refused, I apologized to him, ‘this is my first day for this job, and I really cannot do this, so please change the girl’-he said no, he tried to keep ‘doing’, so finally I punched him in his face.
Td: Why did you choose that kind of work if you didn’t know you could do it?
Nk: I wanted lots of things at that time, designer bags, clothes, luxury things.
Td: How old were you at that time? What got you interested in that type of work?
Nk: I was around 18. One of my friends was working there, and she said the job was easy, it was an easy way to make money, she said I could try for one day, so I did.
Td: For you, what is different between pornography and artistic nude?
Nk: I don’t do pornography. Or cosplay. The way to express in pornography is too direct, and it’s only for men’s satisfaction sexually, I don’t do that. The photographers who shoot me already know I don’t do pornography, because they’ve seen my website, and I don’t have any of that on my website.
Td: Were you shy the first time you were photographed nude?
Nk: No. Because my ‘switch’ turns on…in front of my boyfriend, I’m shy, I’ll hesitate to take off my clothes, but in front of a camera, this is a special place for me to express something-not only to show my naked body, but a place of expression. It’s art, so I don’t get shy.
Td: Does your 5 year old daughter know mommy does nude photography? Do you think she understands your work?
Nk: She knows. I took her to the studio with me. I went to Europe and took her to the studio with me, she could see the whole process, so she gets used to seeing this kind of shooting. Of course she wonders ‘why mommy is naked’, but I didn’t have to explain, because she understood something.
Td: What if she tells you one day that she wants to be a nude model?
Nk: I want her to do anything she wants to do, I will not stop her.
Td: What made you want to do this kind of work?
Nk: Modeling is one way to express myself. I love expression. I also write, I’m now writing a love story, but there’s no happy end..
Td: Who discovered you? And how?
Nk: My ex-boyfriend. He worked at an advertising company. We often had photo sessions, as a hobby, but I found I loved it. He also liked Japanese bondage, ‘shibari’. He took that kind of picture also, and I loved that as well. I had a favorite author, Ryu Murakami, who wrote about Japanese bondage, so, I already had a kind of knowledge about it. I loved his stories, so it wasn’t so strange for me. He writes about Japanese girls lives, piercing, tattoo art. He also writes economic stories. He writes different things. So I’m a big fan of his work. So my introduction to that art was good, it didn’t seem strange or scary.
Td: Describe the feeling of being tied up. What gets you off about it.
Nk: When I do them for modeling. It’s just a job, and a way to express. In my personal life, Japanese bondage – I want to feel that I am under control, that I cannot do anything without the partners order. I am very submissive I think.
Td: What is the attraction of being ‘submissive’?
Nk: I’m very shy. If my boyfriend orders me, I would get shy so much, so maybe I might hesitate, because I’m shy. I’m originally a bit afraid of men. But at the same time, I love this feeling, because it makes me feel that I cannot do anything, I just follow his order, I can only do what he allows. {This is the submissive trait}.
Td: Do your nude photo shoots turn you on?
Nk: No.
Td: In your private life, are you only attracted to the Ds (Dominant/Submissive) stereotype?
Nk: No. I’ve dated ‘normal’ guys-the bondage, dominant thing is not a necessary element for me to have a relationship.
Td: What do people say when they find out you do nude model work?
Nk: My father was angry at first, that’s what my mother told me, but I’m a grown woman so it doesn’t bother me. My friends support me, they give me compliments and understand me, they’re happy because I’m happy and I found my way to do, real friends of mine don’t disagree with my way.
Td: Tell me your some of your thoughts about Japan-
Nk: People in Japan work so hard, saving lots of money, but I want to ask for what? They work hard everyday, until late in the evening, then they go drinking, they do the same thing everyday for their whole lives. I hate it. It’s so boring. Why work hard to make and save so much money, and do nothing?
Td: You lived in Europe for a while, talk about that experience..
Nk: I lived in Bremen, Germany for 4 years. I was a “haus frau”, basically a housewife there. I found that women’s position in Germany is totally equal to men. They express themselves directly and clearly. For me it was too tough to get along with people, I couldn’t speak German…here in Japan, a woman’s position is much lower than a man’s, sometimes it helps us women though, we can make excuses, we can be weak when we need to be here, so the inequality supports women I think. In Germany, I realized I was spoiled a lot in Japan, as a woman. My boyfriend in Germany said I should learn to say what I want with a ‘big voice’. Also, in Japan, people smile a lot, it makes a good atmosphere, but in Germany, if I smile too much, people think I am laughing at them.
Td: Did you learn to like the ‘equality’ between the sexes while you were in Germany?
Nk: Yes. Because I was a single mother and I was fed up with Japanese society.
Td: What will you do next?
Nk: I miss Europe. I’d like to go back to Germany, or some country in Europe. It’s easy to travel to other countries there. I like the architecture, and, as a single mother, it’s much more comfortable there than here. It’s more common if you are a single mother there, they accept people as they are more than here. They don’t ask about my history or anything like that, they don’t judge me.
Keep going Natsuki, never give up..
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